Hormones??

Today was one of the worst days I have had in a while and I know I said that last Friday...but today was worse. It has been a ROUGH week to say the least.

Today I got a call from my boss (on my day off) questioning my judgement on something that happened yesterday. My feelings were hurt and I felt like I was being attacked. Normally I would just be pissed and defend myself but I couldn't stop crying...WTF!! My job is already on uneasy ground, so this just made it worse. DH thinks I should quit because the stress is not good for my body seeing how we are trying to make a baby and all. The situation ended up working out after explaining why I took the actions I did and my boss apologized for hurting my feelings.

I don't want to be in this bad place but I am. I can't control my emotions!! I hate that I cry at the drop of a hat and can't stop. In the 17 months that we have been TTC I have not been this emotionally out of control, I can usually keep myself in check.

Is it the stress & uncertainty of TTC and my job combined, or my hormones? Does Follistim make people like this?? That is the only thing different this cycle, and since I have never felt this bad I don't know what else it could be. I would love it if it was because I was pregnant, but I have a feeling it was just time for me to have one of these dark moments. I am hoping it doesn't last much longer.

Today my good friend and neighbor took me to Steak'n Shake for lunch and then we watched So You Think You Can Dance on TIVO. After my cookies n' cream shake and good conversation with her I feel much better. Thank goodness for good friends who and bring us back from the ledge.

I am posting these dark moments mostly for myself so I can always remember what I went through to get pregnant and have a family. You guys are probably tired of hearing me complain...I am tired of it myself!! Thank you for sticking with me through the good and the bad.