This week has been very therapeutic for me. I made myself make some hard decisions. I say "made" because I don't like change, so for me to actually take the initiative to change something is BIG!!
- Laparoscopy - I am going to have the surgery October 21st. I have talked to many women who have had this procedure done, they explained the details and it put me more at ease. I figured that if I have endometriosis it needs to be fixed and if not at least it will be ruled out. This is just one more test that gets me closer to my goal. At first I was bummed that we had to take a month off from TTC, but since it is out of my control I am welcoming the break. No temping, OPK's, CM checks, ultrasounds, injections, IUI, and that unwanted hope that creeps up every month.
- Employment status - Unemployed!! That's right I told work that I wouldn't be coming back. After starting my period early (I am convinced it was stress related) I decided that I need to focus on taking care of myself. I am lucky enough to NOT have to get another job. I will do consulting once a week just so that I can get out of the house. It was really hard for me to justify not having a job when I am college educated, but my DH made me realize that having a baby is the most important thing to us right now. I am going to take this time to take care of myself.
- Volunteer - I have volunteered for a charity that works with children who are battling cancer for the last 5 years. I haven't been able to offer as much time as I would like since I had a 9-5 job. Now that I have a lot of free time I will be volunteering 1-2 days a week. This is perfect opportunity for me because I will be getting out of the house and it warms my heart to put a smile on these children's faces.
- Health - I joined a gym not only for my physical health but also my mental health. I will be taking Yoga classes twice a week because I need that meditation time. It helps keep my stress level at a minimum. I will also be getting my body back in shape. Since TTC I have gained 10 lbs. from the stress of it all.
This is my new plan. It is very strange to me, but I am going to embrace this opportunity. I feel so much better now that these decisions have been made. I am at peace with my my choices. I am going to try this new plan out till January and then reevaluate .
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These are excellent things you're doing for yourself!!! I hope the surgery is an easy one for you!
Sounds like a well thought out and balanced plan. I also struggled with not using my degree, but I take advantage of the opportunity to fill my days with family, volunteering, and being a regular at the gym. It's really nice- you'll love it. We are both certainly blessed to have DHs who can support our families without our needing income. Congratulations on your new life plan!
Good luck to you with everything. I feel the same way about my employment status. I feel weird not having a job right now when I do have a master's degree, but we are focusing on getting pregnant and I don't "have" to have a job. It still feels weird though.
This new plan sounds great. I think you will really feel more relaxed and centered doing yoga and having more time for yourself. Thatta girl! And as far as the lap- I think it was an excellent decision. Good for you for being brave and just getting it out of the way. At least you can enjoy a nice glass of vino this month! :) Hang in there girl.
Sounds amazing. I'm jealous!!!
Sounds amazing. I'm jealous!!!
Hope everything goes well for you. Know that I'm praying for you!!
i love your plan. i think it's wonderful. everything. and i think as much as it sucks to have to take a break, you'll enjoy that too! just use this cycle to get into your NEW routine!!!
Oh wonderful news! All around really! :-) Praying for good surgery results...
I love the plan! Sounds like you have it all figured out! I'm praying that the surgery goes well and you will have a baby by this time next year!
Enjoy being unemployed! Put your time and effort in getting pregnant. That is why I left teaching last year. The stress was too much for me, and I knew deep in my heart that having a baby was all that mattered to me!
Ugh...I've put on ten pounds too, not sure if it is TTC or school or both! LOL!
I'm praying for you sweetie!
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Good for you! That's fantastic that you're able to take the time off and just take care of yourself. It sounds like you made the right decisions.
And I really think doing the lap is best. Like you said, now you'll know either way.
Good luck!
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