Welcome to my blog!! This is the first time I have participated in ICLW and am looking forward to meeting new people.
OUR STORY:
DH and I have been TTC for 15 months. We never imagined it would take this long to get pregnant!! I also had no idea this process would be so emotionally draining. I feel like we live our lives in 2 week increments (AF shows, then I wait to ovulate, then I wait for AF again). Some days I feel like I will never be a mom. I try to stay positive most of the time but as you know that can be very difficult. It is so frustrating for me b/c I feel like we are doing everything possible to get pregnant and its STILL not happening. I am a bit of a control freak so that is a hard pill to swallow.
We have had all the IF tests before we even went to see and RE, all of which were normal (a detailed list of tests are on the sidebar). In May, after a year of trying, we went to see an RE. I was so afraid to see an RE b/c that meant that we couldn't get pregnant on our own and we were labeled "infertile"!! That also meant that anything performed at the RE's office was NOT covered by our insurance company. We had to think about how much $ we were going to be able to spend since it was ALL out of pocket. We got lucky and worked out a deal with RE's office to pay 1/2 of what they normally charge!!
So onto the RE's findings....he found that there are not many sperm in my CM which means that the sperm aren't getting up to the tubes, so IUI was the best option. We had our first IUI with HCG trigger in May that resulted in a BFN. We are getting ready to have our second IUI w/ clomid and HCG trigger next week. We are keeping our fingers crossed that this will give us a BFP!!
Not many people IRL know about our struggle to be parents. We are pretty private people and don't want people to feel sorry for us or walk on eggshells around us. This blog and the community of women dealing with IF have been such a great support system for me. It has been really therapeutic to get my feelings out. I wish none of us had to go through this heartache, but I am glad to have such a great group of women to lean on. Thanks for stopping by, I hope you come back!!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
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Posted by Jessica at 9:56 AM
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Yay for IUI number 2! I totally hear you about the frustrations and trying to stay positive. It's so easy to say that you are going to be positive, but does the heart always follow the head? I hope nothing but the best for you and your dh with this next cycle!
Thanks for your comment on my blog. I read some of your history, and cannot believe that an RE's office does not have weekend hours! Seriously, that is crazy. Many of my procedures and lots of monitoring were on weekends. What were they gonna do? Trigger shots do not allow them to control everything.
Have you looked at SART stats for REs in your area? Although it tells a lot about IVF stats, I think it is a good indicator of overall skill/competence. Check it out at sart.org.
And good luck with IUI #2!
I hope your next IUI is The One! And that it happens during the week!
I think IUI with clomid will give you the best chance of a BFP! I'm praying it works!
*ICLW*
babyparamore.blogspot.com
You and I are about the same point on this journey: we've also been TTC for 15 months (17 cycles), and I've had one IUI + Clomid and will do my second IUI cycle in August.
I hope that IUI #2 does the trick for you!
ICLW
Pie...
Thank you for the giving me the info about sart.org
I had never heard of that...
Welcome to ILCW! It is such a fantastic way to get to meet new people. There is lots of love out there!
Thanks for the history. Even though I've been reading you for a little bit, it was nice to hear more of your story.
Good Luck with your upcoming cycle! I'll be crossing my fingers for you!!!
Good luck on your upcoming cycle. I hope this is the one! ICLW is great for the support and a great way to find new blogs. I wish you luck!! *ICLW*
Good luck on your IUI!!!! I LOVED Clomid, it made me feel fantastic. hehehe Hope it has great effects (baby...) for you!
ICLW
Wishing you the very best of luck with your next IUI. Its so hard to feel like you are chasing a dream and getting nowhere.
~ICLW
Keeping you in my prayers as you prepare for your IUI!!!!! And that's crazy about no weekend hours. I think my RE is open 7 days a week 365 days a year.
ICLW #41
Good luck!
Good luck on your next IUI.
Stopping by for an ICLW visit...
No. 95: The Unfair Struggle (male-factor infertility, good friends, neighborhood rumblings)
I hope IUI#2 is successful! I'm so sorry it's been such a struggle for you guys! You're in my thoughts and prayers!!!
(((HUGS)))
Tammy
www.twondra.blogspot.com
ICLW #12
I'm hoping that this time is succesful for you! Best wishes and happy. ICLW!
My first time at ICLW too. I loved reading the 10 honest things about you.
Re: the control freak thing.I understand, because I have it too. However, I also have learned to put it in its rightful place. Do you know the Serenity Prayer?
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." Say it enough times, when in one of those frustrating "why can't I make this happen?" moments, and you will begin to really feel what it means. If you let go of that control tendency and believe that you are doing all you can do, you realize that the perfectionism subsides and a calm, at peace, serenity takes its place. You also need the courage to engage in the process of assisted conception as it 1) takes over your life, 2) it's inconvenient and sometimes scary and painful, 3) the hormone medication can really mess with your moods, making for some roller-coaster emotions and interruptions to your life. Finally, you have to know how to choose your battles: go for what you can change, let go of what you can't change.
Best wishes,
Lisa
I hope the IUI is successful!
ICLW #52
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