That's what the nurse said to me this afternoon.....not exactly what I wanted to hear, but it's true.
I woke up this morning with cramps, ran to the bathroom and thought there was a tint of brown on the toilet paper. I was so excited that AF was coming that I e-mail my nurse. She said "Yahoo...now you don't have to do the Cetrotide injections and you can start the BCP's tonight."
I was happy with this answer, but then began to second guess that "brown spotting" because I didn't see it for the rest of the day. I e-mailed her again (I bet she is wishing she didn't have to deal with me) and told her about the disappearance of the spotting. She told me to go ahead and do the injections and then start BCP's tonight. Like most of you, I didn't understand what the purpose of Cetrotide was...I thought it was supposed to bring on AF, but now they wanted me to begin BCP too????
She ended up calling me and seemed a little annoyed that I was questioning her and the RE. I explained that I just wanted to make sure I knew what I was putting in my body and why. She was much more sweet as the conversation went on. The point of Cetrotide is to lower estrogen which helps resolve cysts. I had a cyst show up on my most recent ultrasound, but the RE is not concerned. It is a corpus luteum cyst where I ovulated from this month, but since I ovulated so late (CD 21) there is still remnants of it. This is also what might be keeping AF at bay, so hopefully these two injections will thin my lining and get rid of the small left over cyst. She assured me that I am not the first person this has happen to, and the RE would not let me do the April cycle if my body wasn't ready.
I started crying as soon as I hung up the phone. I felt better after she explained everything, but I just don't like this uneasy feeling so early in the game!! I am overwhelmed with emotion. I cried on and off for about 30 minutes and told DH I am scared. I know things aren't always going to go smoothly with IVF, but being off to a "rocky start" freaks me out a bit.
I even cried as DH was giving me the two injections. They didn't even hurt, I was just emotional from my conversation with the nurse and the reality that we are actually having to do IVF . I'm just having one of those days.
Two injection down a million more to go.....
Friday, March 12, 2010
Off to a rocky start
Posted by Jessica at 4:46 PM
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Oh hun. ((((HUGS)))) Keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers as your baby cycle has officially began!!!!
Oh hun I'm so sorry you're having a tough time and are off to a rocky start. I hope that the rocky road gets much smoother and in the end it will all work out. I'm praying for you! ((HUGS))
Hoping that a rocky start will soon lead to smooth sailing. I definitely understand the emotions and questions for the nurses. I average at least one e-mail a day to my coordinator. Glad to hear you were able to get answers...
I'm sorry you had such a rough day:( I can't stand it when I don't understand why I'm doing something...my nurse gets annoyed at me too because I'm always wanting her to explain and all she wants to do is hurry up and get off the phone! I hope things get easier for you soon. It can be very overwhelming, but all of this will be so worth it!
Now it's time to be excited! You're truly on your way! I can't wait to hear how it gets better and smoother!
Yuck. I'm sorry that this IVF cycle is getting off to a rocky start. Hopefully it will be smooth sailing from here on out.
So sorry your having an emotional start. I do the same thing with my nurses and always feel bad about bugging them and hope I'm not driving them nuts. I hope the rest of this process goes smoothly.
Im sorry things are off to a rough start but I know they will continue to get better. Hang in there!
Dang it! I hate that this started out rocky! I would have questioned the coordinator too. You are just looking out for yourself and I am sure that they are used to it. I am praying that the rest of this is smooth sailing for you!!
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