Clomid

Today I start taking my 4th (and last) round of Clomid. I have always ovulated on my own, proven by temperature hikes and + OPK's. I was confused when my OB originally wanted me to starting taking it because I thought it was for women who DO NOT ovulate. Clomid apparently makes the eggs healthier/bigger in women who ovulate on their own.

I am not the type of person who pops pills, I take the normal stuff when needed (pain & vitamins) but not much beyond that. I am a control freak so I don't like to take medicine that is going to effect my body's normal function, especially my mind. So with that said, I had to take a big step to take Clomid. Fortunatly the only side effects that I have noticed from taking Clomid is hot flashes, so it's not bad at all. I am so desperate to get pregnant that I am throwing out my fears of unfamiliar medicine.

I have realized throughout this entire process of TTC that I have to "let go", which is very hard for me to do. I have always been a sucessful person. I was taught at a young age that if you want something you have to work hard to get it, and that has worked up until now. I want a baby SO bad and I am doing everything in my power to make it happen.....but still no baby. So I am trying to step aside and let my body do it's magic without obsessing over NOT having a baby.