During the ultrasound the RE said I only have one big egg maybe another one. I was pretty upset because I make one good egg without sticking myself in the belly with $500 worth of drugs!!! I felt like my body was failing me.
He told me to up my Follistim again to 150 for two more nights and then have unprotected sex starting on Wednesday. EXCUSE ME!!! What about the IUI?? I started to freak out inside, then took a breath and expressed my concerns. What is the point of spending all this money and effort on meds and ultrasounds if we aren't going to have the IUI? He said because of the holiday it makes it tricky, but I could come in on Christmas Eve if I that works for me....UM YEAH!!! He was trying to make it convenient for me because he thought I was going to be out of town. When I corrected him, he agreed that the IUI on Thursday would be the best option. So now I have get ANOTHER ultrasound on Wednesday, then the IUI on Thursday.
They also did an estadiol blood test which shows how many follies there are just to make sure. They wanted to see in the high 200's - mine was 450 so that means there are at least two...right?? This made me feel much better but I didn't know the results until 5 hrs later, so I was upset most of the day.
My sister is in town so she came with me. It was nice to have someone with me especially since it didn't go as well as expected!! It sucks that I have to spend so much time going tot the RE while she is here...but I have no other choice, this is my fertilte time.
If you haven't gathered from other posts I am a control freak, I like to have a plan, and I am frugle with our money. These personality traits don't mix well with infertility!!! I hate going to the RE and having the plans change yet once again. The money issue has also been bothering me a lot lately since we might have to do IVF. We have spent the most money this cycle because all of the ultrasounds, blood test, extra meds!! It sucks because I am not working and we pay for everything out of pocket!! We are spending A LOT of money to have a baby and people that tell me not to think or worry about the money need to kiss my ass!! If we had IF insurance I think that would take a big weight off of us, but we don't so I just have to suck it up because this is what I want the most in the whole world.
To top off the appointment the secretary who is usually very nice was...well you decide:
Before the ultrasound
Secretary - What kind of mood are we in today???
Me: I guess we will see after the ultrasound..Ha! Ha!
After the ultrasound ( I was clearly upset)
Secretary - You need to work on having a more positive attitude!
Me - I am working on it
Secretary - You are not doing a very good job!!
Me - I was dumbfounded...not able to say anything
Secretary - We will see you on Wednesday with a smile on your face!!
Are you fucking kidding me. How dare her say that to someone who has been TTC for 19 months and is on her last IUI!! We left the office and I burst into tears!! I called DH and he (who is usually so laid back) wanted to call her and tell her to quit treating me like that. That is sweet but I don't want to get into with her. I just want to get the IUI done without any drama!!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Ultrasound and disappointment
Posted by Jessica at 9:29 AM
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Geez, you would think someone working in a fertility clinic would have a little better sense of things NOT to say!!! Sorry chick, that sucks. She is lucky you didn't bite her head off. Hang in there.
woah, what a total & complete biotch. hello lady! Insensitive much?! Jeez.
I'm pulling & praying for you this cycle!
Sounds like your doc is trying to discourage IUI's on Xmas eve so he can close the office. He should have thought about that before he scheduled your cycle - he knows well in advance when his patients are most likely to ovulate. Sheesh! Good thing you spoke up. All that money that you spent on meds could have been wasted. You know, money may grow on his trees, but for the rest of us, our trees are barren (and no pun intended, but it does sound that way, doesn't it?)
Good luck Thursday!!!
Okay, I would have complained about that lady. She had no business saying that to you. What a bitch. I'm sorry you are having a rough day. :( I hope the IUI works!
Hugs!
OMG that lady is unbelievable! I'm so sorry you had to deal with her on top of everything else. I hope your ovaries kick into gear and produce an extra egg or two. Thinking of you and praying for you hun!
I would have wanted to complain about this lady too! How rude! Hoping this is your cycle! Fingers crossed for you.
So are you going to trigger Wednesday after the U/S if follies are large enough?
That receptionist is a b!tch. Seriuosly she should be fired.
I also would have complained about the receptionist. She needs some sensitivity training!
Wow, I'm sorry your appointment didn't go as well as it should have. Like we need any more stress, WTF?! That must have been so nice to have your sister there with you. I've had more than one appointment where I started bawling the minute the elevator doors closed. It'd be nice to have someone there with me...
By the way, that woman WAS a bitch.
GROW, FOLLIES GROW!!!
I can't believe the receptionist was like that. Just ignore her and her ignorance. I'm sorry the ultrasound didn't show what you wanted. I hope that they will see more in the next one.
Wow, really? That is unacceptable from someone that works in a fertility clinic. I'm sorry. I'm praying that your Christmas Eve IUI will give you the best gift ever!
Wow, that's pretty shocking that they don't train their support staff to shut their mouths around Ifers and show some sensitivity. I hope all goe well with your upcoming u/s and IUI!
Ummm, ewwwww to that lady! I'm sorry though.
Still praying for this cycle!
That lady needs to keep her pie hole shut! Seriously, she works at an infertility clinic, she has to know how devastating it is to have to come month after month and not be pregnant. I you or your DH should complain to your RE!
You are a much nicer and bigger person than I am! I have told off a few secretaries at dr's office in the past year or so, and it is always well deserved on their part. You would think they would have some type of training on dealing with and handling patients, especially in the infertility world, but sadly that does not seem to be the case. Kudos to you for not telling her to f off as I would have, and good luck!
:-(
That sucks!
Wow really she said that?? You would think someone who works in an infertilty office would be smarter than that! I am praying that you have a wonderful Christmas and New Years gift with a BFP!!
No WAY! I can't believe it about that secretary! From any old dumb office, sure, but in an IF clinic-- hellO!! Duh! I truly think that IF clinics should only hire previous or current IFers because things like this are just ridiculous. Next time tell her she's not doing a very good job of being courteous and sensitive and next time you come in you want to see her with a little TLC in her behavior. So sorry :(
Good luck with the upcoming IUI! I hope tomorrow goes better than yesterday :)
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