3 weeks to go

Or less if she comes early!!!  I had a mini freak out last night because we are so close and I can't believe this is really happening.  We have been sad and disappointed so much in the last 4 years that it feels unimaginable that we might actually get our happy ending.  I am also doing the normal new mom panic and second guessing my motherly skills.  I want this more than anything and I have so much expereince with kids but its going to be totally different.  DH brought me these flowers and card today.Click on the picture to read the card.  He is so wonderful!!

 
We are scared about the unknown but we feel really good about the birth parents.  We have a great relationship with them.  We talk on the phone, Skype, text, and email.  They are so amazing and seem REALLY confident about their adoption plan but we are still aware they could change their mind.  We aren't living in fear though, we have jumped in with all our hearts, we owe that to ourselves.  We already love this little girl so much its crazy.
The agency specialist told us she has never seen such an amazing relationship in the 10 years she has been at the agency.  The birth parents want us to be a part of everything.  It's almost like she's our surrogate because of the amount of involvement we've had.
 

We got to watch 2 ultrasounds LIVE.

They had the idea to send us weekly belly pictures, where they paint on her belly and measure how big the belly has gotten!!  So cute!!

  
They give us updates after every Dr. appointment and let us be a part of every decision relating to the baby because ..."You are her parents, you should get to enjoy every aspect"!!!!  They even sent me a "push present". The birth mother said even though I am not pregnant I am the baby's mother and I should get a gift. It was a beautiful Willow statue. It' a tradition in her family to get one of these when you give birth so she wanted me to have one because I am like family to her. Isn't that so sweet!!!

We Skyped for 3 hours last week because they wanted us to help them make the birth plan.  We only talked about the actual birth plan for 15 minutes, the rest of the time was just talking and getting to know each other.  They want us to be in the delivery room, DH to cut the cord, me to hold the baby first, and we will have our own room in the hospital and will be able to keep our daughter with us at all times. 

We feel so incredibly lucky to be in this situation.  It could be any day now!!!